Category Archives: Jealousy

Cross Roads

Now again I am standing at the cross roads

With empty soul,while my heart stays at your door

I long for a kiss in the sun and in the rain

The one that’s suppose to heal all of the pain

What is right and what is wrong

Tired of waiting I lose faith and hope

Every night I look up to the skies

And asks GOD for a different life

“I am tired, I’m confused, I can’t make it” I say

HE gently smiles and shows me a sign each day

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My Life After You

The pen in my hand staring at white blank pages

Nothing comes to mind except for those faces

I tried to live with the Ghost of my shadows

Even tried to smile in my haunted meadows

But the letters of the past shouldn’t be opened

For the echoes of the heart should never be spoken

From Dawn to Dusk, in their eyes I have a life

Though I battle the same Demons every night

Wet sleeves like dewdrops on leaves

Empty eyes with nothing to believe

If you knew How I am without you

A mourning dove in winter without a clue

You would come back to me in an instant 

And whisk me away from the edge of my existence 

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Something I wrote for the wordle challenge from Daily Prompt https://aprompteachday.wordpress.com/2015/06/20/prompt-20-weekend-wordle-3/

My Friend & I

My soul is filthy with hatred & loathing
Its like I’m on fire,yet nobody sees it
The screaming & shouting cuts me like glass
Still I tried to live in the house of shards
For I had a hope in a beautiful face
Who left me behind confused & afraid
Turn off the lights & lock the door
This night is ours and I need nothing more
Don’t leave me my friend I need you tonight
Only you know how hollow I am from inside
Their piercing eyes would label it a crime
“How coward she is,to take a bottle of pills”
Soon it will be over no need to worry
& if the angles won’t accept me, like in every story
I will survive even in hell
For his love awaits after this death

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Dark Night

I close my eyes and take a knife
Took a deep breath and stab it in my chest
I twist it hard trying to destroy my heart
Thick red blood is dripping hard and fast
Strange how with every stab I make
I feel my pains going away
I look around at this peaceful glow
Beautiful,like petals of roses scattered in the snow
The pain the grief the sadness the jealousy the agony
All seem to be healing in a blissful ceremony
One final look for the one last sign
And I find my self in the same old time
Don’t you worry my dear,don’t even cry
Soon I’ll doze off again,and start it all again

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My Fake Smile

I am torn up
Like piece of paper thrown out
I am broken 
Like a wine glass with a stake out
The strapless dress on my wall
My high heels in my hand
Should I go out to the world unknown
Should I show my face to the one I’ve known
I am not afraid of the shadows that haunt me
I am afraid of the reasons that you can’t see
Still I will smile with all of my teeth
So no one will see how my heart feels
Will you see the pain behind my fake smile
Will you hear the whispers that ruin my life
I will hid it all in a smile
Can you decipher my smile
My fake smile
I’ve burnt out
Like a candle in a cold dark night
I am tired
For putting a show for such a long time
Vanilla french coat over my arm
My car keys in my palm
Should I let my feet feel the sand
Should I place my heart in your hands
I am not afraid to be left out
I am afraid that you have missed me out
Still I will smile with all of my teeth
So no one will see how my heart feels
Will you see the pain behind my fake smile
Will you hear the whispers that ruin my life
I will hid it all in a smile
Can you decipher my smile
My fake smile

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Bitter Real World

 
   People never hate or envy or get jealous of your big house or your late night drives with your handsome husbands in their Maseratis or even your perfect life, they get jealous and envy and hate you, for turning your small house into a haven for everyone, of your late night walks with that someone who may not make you the queen of the world but treats you like one. In fact people get jealous of how you make your imperfect life a perfect one.

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